My sister was talking with me the other day about when I go into labor and the plan for her to stay with my daughter Emma. I couldn’t even think about it without almost bursting into tears. I know it sounds silly but I’m not ready to leave her because I know in doing so everything changes. Of course this change is wonderful and a gift from God but I’m still having a difficult time.
It sounds so selfish to say that, it really does. But it’s as honest as I can get. I have so many emotions about another baby coming along and so much love for my baby girl that it’s all becoming a little too much for me (and too real with today being September 1st!).
So, I wrote this poem sobbing imagining that day not to far away when I will hug her one last time. I love you my sweet baby girl!
One more hug
I want to give you one more hug,
Before I say good bye.
Because this is the last hug,
Where it will be just you and I.
I’m going now but will be back soon,
And with me I’ll have someone new.
A baby that will live with us,
A brother just for you!
But as I look at you so grown,
With tears in my eyes.
I know this will be harder for me than you,
Having to say this kind of good bye.
So my darling sweet first daughter,
I give you one last hug good bye.
Our family is growing and that means some changes,
But I still promise moments of just you and I.
I will always cherish,
These first two years we shared together.
From you saying mama to I love you,
My heart is full forever.
And now we’ll make new memories,
With our growing family of four.
And it will be just as special,
If not, even more!
So here I go with one last hug,
I squeeze you tighter than you know.
A part of me doesn’t want to leave,
Or ever let you go.
God has blessed us abundantly,
And I’ll be back to hug you again.
I hope you know how much I love you,
And my love for you will never end.