Slow Down…

I heard this song the other day on the radio and lost it. Ironically, I was driving to pick up my daughter from my mom’s and couldn’t help but cry. I would say it’s the pregnancy hormones but I cry a lot so I don’t even think I can use that excuse!

My baby is two. I can’t even believe it. I can’t believe how quickly the time has gone by. It’s amazing to reflect upon how much she’s grown and changed and now seeing her as this ‘little person’. But as the song says…

“It’s all too fast…..let’s make it last a little while, I pointed to the sky and now you want to fly….I am your biggest fan, I hope you know I am, but do you think that you could slow down…”

I realize only two years have gone by but as a new mom it seems like it’s flying too fast for me to keep up. And a part of me doesn’t want to keep up…I want to hold onto these moments forever. I want to keep her tiny and in my arms for as long as I can. I want it all to slow down…

Life is fast. It’s more fast paced than we know what to do with it. Think about how impatient you get when your browser doesn’t load quick enough or someone doesn’t answer your call after the first or second ring? We are so impatient! I think back to the moments in my life when I wanted everything right then and there. I wanted to go to this school or be married at that age or live in that house…I wanted all these things for myself and I just couldn’t slow down.

I am blessed and grateful for this life that I do easily take for granted at times. And now, as I wake up tiny voice of my daughter saying ‘mommy’ each morning, I realize why patience is everything. I can’t slow life down, but I can definitely stop to enjoy the moments. There’s so many things in life to worry and wonder about, but sometimes you have to just let go and enjoy the precious gifts right in front of you. I can’t tell you what tomorrow holds or what the future will bring, but I can say that it’s nice to slow down and enjoy ‘the now’.

Why Being a Parent is Priceless.

As my husband and I continue our search for the ‘perfect’ home (I am starting to believe there really is no such thing unless you have an unlimited budget!), finances start adding up quickly and the next thing you know you’re arguing about a Starbucks coffee purchase.

It’s easy to get caught up in the nitpicking details of life, but sometimes you just have to sit back and recognize what’s really important in life. There are days when I think more money would make all of my problems go away, but I know that’s not true. My brother-in-law jokingly says to me, “Mo’ money, mo’ problems”. It always makes me laugh but there’s seems to be a lot of truth to that statement. Sure, all the money in the world could buy me my dream home, endless vacations, all the clothes, shoes and purses I could ever want but it can’t buy me what’s really important…those things of priceless value. There is no amount that could buy me happiness (maybe temporarily but not long term), love (the real and true kind), genuine feelings or gift of being a parent. So while I would be able to buy all the materialistic things in the world, I wouldn’t be able to buy the things that really matter.

The other day I watched my daughter zoom down the hallway in her walker bumping into walls and laughing as she would turn around to look at me only to laugh even harder seeing that I was. I couldn’t help but feel so much love and joy in my heart. In that moment, all my worries and stresses from the day/week/month just faded away. ‘This is my child…she’s mine…I made her!’, I thought to myself as a huge smile came to my face. There is no amount of money that could have bought that moment for me. And I know that’s only one of many to come.

Being a parent is not easy, but it’s so rewarding that it’s the one thing I would say I’d do no matter how difficult it was. There is nothing more priceless your child’s smile, hug, kiss, reach for you, cuddle with you, cry for you, recognition of you, hearing the words ‘I love you’ from their tiny little mouths, the way they squeeze you, hold on to you and love you. And as they get older, nothing more priceless than watching them make right and moral decisions, stand up for themselves and their values, come to you with honesty and grow up along the way to be the children/adolescents/young adults and adults you hoped they would be.

Of course you’re not going to like, approve and maybe even know if every decision they make, but the job of being a parent and the feelings that come along with it are truly priceless.

Sure, my husband and I will never have more money than we know what to do with it, but that’s okay. We will survive. We will make it work. But what we do have is happiness, love and a child (and hopefully one day children) to call our own. And for me, there is no price tag on that.