Since the discovery of being able to pull herself up and stand in the crib, my daughter has turned nap (and bed) time into play time. I will lay her down as she puts her hands over her face, the usual ‘I’m tired and ready for sleep’ move. However, this little nugget does this only to lure me confidently out of the room to which she immediately sits up and begins party time!
Here’s how I picture what she’s thinking, parenthesis indicates what things actually are:
Ok, pretend I’m tired. Yep, night mom, laying down until 3, 2,….Ok she’s out! Ha! And I am sitting up. Oh, another fun thing that goes in my mouth (pacifier)! I’m going to bang this against these things here (crib rails) and makes lots of noise. BANG BANG BANG! This is lots of fun. Uh oh, the fun thing (paci) fell, I think I’ll stand up and try to get it. Ok, here we go….and I’m up! Ha! Now where is that thing (paci)? Maybe if I just move down this thing (top railing) I’ll find it. Whoops, fell backwards. I’ll just try to pull myself up again. Here we go….aaaaaaand UP! Easy. Back down! Aaaaaaaaaand up…back down! THUD. Yep, that was my head, now I’m going to scream loud because that one hurt. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
And here’s what I’m thinking:
Wow, that was easy, she definitely was tired as I quietly step out and turn on the monitor. Oh that little….she’s up! She is up! Oh fun, banging the paci on the rails. Yep, that’s on the ground now, well at lease she still has the one in her mouth. Oh, standing up now, great. Here we go! She’s up, wobbling, I can’t look away because she’s going to….fall, yep, there it is. Oh, back up again. I’m going to have a heart attack. Back down again. Oh child, please just go to bed! Back up….she’s close that that edge, oh this isn’t going to be good I think as I drop the monitor and walk towards the room….THUD. I hear her start to cry and feel sick to my stomach as I pick her up immediately to console her.
Yes, this is the nightmare of nap and bed time. My fearless child thinks she’s bigger than she is and wants to explore the world of standing. But you know what? She should. I can’t keep her in a bubble. She’s going to get hurt and not on purpose but because she’s a curious baby who’s becoming more and more aware of her surroundings. I can try my best to prevent these situations but they’re going to happen and the best thing I can do is not panic the way I have been every time I put her in her crib (aka her jungle gym).
Every day is filled with new excitement, adventures, challenges and experiences. I love being a part of them. I love being a mom. I love this child. But right now, I would just love it if she went to sleep!