It’s kind of amazing how this journey has brought me here, to the thing I love to do, write. I’m going to be a mom. Me! A mom! I’m an exclamation kind of person so I’ll prepare you now…lots of exclamation points…LOTS!!! One can ever use enough exclamation points, in my opinion, angry or happy!!!
I’m slowly adjusting to this new ‘title’. After the excitement then panic set in, I’ve begun to settle in to this new role quite nicely I think. Well, minus the morning sickness and what feels already like millions of changes to my body. From a mental standpoint, it’s different. I’m different. I look back now and think what a change a human being growing inside of you can make. Whenever I hear babies crying, I can’t help but sympathize with the parents thinking about how difficult it must be for them and their poor child who is in some sort of distress. I now look at little girls and boys adoringly as I rub my own belly and wonder what gender our little peanut will be.
There’s something that takes over you when you become pregnant. You become a ‘mom’ and not just because of the physical change but the emotional ones. I feel motherly. Is that even possible?
Heading into my second trimester, I am anxiously awaiting this child’s arrival in June. Life as (my husband and) I know it will never be the same. People say it to us all the time….’get as much sleep as you can now’, ‘go out to the movies and dinner often’, ‘get away if you can’….and at first I thought, wow, it’s not like we’re preparing for Armageddon here, but really, having a child does change the single lifestyle you’re used to leading as a couple. It will never again just be my husband and I…and I’m really okay with that.
Yes, I had my moments of selfishness and wanting to just travel and live the two of us but deep down, I always wanted kids. I just didn’t know when God would give them to us…and now He has. So, the journey has begun and we are halfway there. I have to say this is one race I can’t wait to get to the end of! But for now, I’ll continue to enjoy this pregnancy and all of its blessings.