Congratulations! It’s a ?

My husband and I have decided not to find out the sex of our baby. This seemed to actually infuriate some people. “Why would you do that?” we’d get asked with a judgmental look upon their face. That was only the start of judgments and opinions we’d soon get! The answer I wanted to give the majority of the time was “BECAUSE WE CAN!” but I would politely reply, “We want it to be a surprise.” And why not? Because there are so many surprises in life?

I can’t imagine a more incredible surprise then birthing my child and having my husband tell me that we made a baby boy or baby girl. I literally cannot wait for that day! But if I’m being completely honest, there is another reason we’re waiting….

For the longest time, I told myself if I ever got pregnant I’d have to know the sex immediately. I’d need to plan! I am a Type A planner, always have been, probably always will be. But the minute we found out, I had a moment and said, “Let’s not find out, let’s be surprised,” to which my husband smiled and agreed. He was always fine with not finding out the entire time, but it was me with my impatience and ‘need for now’ that couldn’t wait. Something just feels right about this surprise, as if it’s the way God intended it to be. Then again, I still haven’t told you part of the reason we’re waiting….

Well, for starters there is a guarantee that day the child is what was predicted. I read a few article that said doctors are right 90% of the time while others said 100%. Some sites stated that with boys it’s 100% and girls 70%. While these odds are high, I’m sure you’ve heard of maybe even known of one person who thought they were having a boy or girl (nursery set, clothes washed and ready) and ‘uh oh’ they had the opposite! The planner in me would go CRAZY! As I said before, the ‘surprise’ factor is also pretty great. But I think for this first time around we’re waiting because of our love for our own genders! My husband wants a boy while I want a girl.

It’s funny as we talk about it and realize how much we really do want our own gender. My husband, growing up with two older brothers, actually said to me the other day, “I don’t get women, I wouldn’t know what to do with a little girl,” to which I replied, “Same goes for me and men!” I grew up with one sister so I completely understand where he’s coming from. Don’t get me wrong, we want HEALTHY first. That’s all we truly care about it, but when it comes to playing favorites on boys and girls, you will definitely hear us state our feelings!

But when it really comes down to it, I love this child so much already that I know the day I meet him or her, I will be so much more in love the sex won’t matter. Sure, if it’s a boy I’ll be sad about not being able to buy little dresses, have tea parties and all the fun things you do with little girls, but I will also love how much this little boy will love me (as I’ve witnessed from many friends who have sons). And, while it’s up to God what we’re blessed with, there’s always the second and maybe even third time around! Either way, I know we are lucky so boy or girl, I couldn’t be happier.

I’m Going to be a Mom!

It’s kind of amazing how this journey has brought me here, to the thing I love to do, write. I’m going to be a mom. Me! A mom! I’m an exclamation kind of person so I’ll prepare you now…lots of exclamation points…LOTS!!! One can ever use enough exclamation points, in my opinion, angry or happy!!!

I’m slowly adjusting to this new ‘title’. After the excitement then panic set in, I’ve begun to settle in to this new role quite nicely I think. Well, minus the morning sickness and what feels already like millions of changes to my body. From a mental standpoint, it’s different. I’m different. I look back now and think what a change a human being growing inside of you can make. Whenever I hear babies crying, I can’t help but sympathize with the parents thinking about how difficult it must be for them and their poor child who is in some sort of distress. I now look at little girls and boys adoringly as I rub my own belly and wonder what gender our little peanut will be.

There’s something that takes over you when you become pregnant. You become a ‘mom’ and not just because of the physical change but the emotional ones. I feel motherly. Is that even possible?

Heading into my second trimester, I am anxiously awaiting this child’s arrival in June. Life as (my husband and) I know it will never be the same. People say it to us all the time….’get as much sleep as you can now’, ‘go out to the movies and dinner often’, ‘get away if you can’….and at first I thought, wow, it’s not like we’re preparing for Armageddon here, but really, having a child does change the single lifestyle you’re used to leading as a couple. It will never again just be my husband and I…and I’m really okay with that.

Yes, I had my moments of selfishness and wanting to just travel and live the two of us but deep down, I always wanted kids. I just didn’t know when God would give them to us…and now He has. So, the journey has begun and we are halfway there. I have to say this is one race I can’t wait to get to the end of! But for now, I’ll continue to enjoy this pregnancy and all of its blessings.